Beautiful Life Part #2

“Beautiful life inside Living, moving, breathing So let hope arise God knew what he was doing when He gave Beautiful, beautiful life.” Beautiful Life by Trip Lee

Last week I posted the eulogy that I delivered for my uncle Junior. In it, I spoke about how God makes everything beautiful in its time. Eulogizing my uncle brought up a lot of memories. It reminded me of how easy it is to get lost in life and how the cares of life can lead us astray and dull our senses. It’s almost like being a zombie. We aren’t dead, but we aren’t alive either—just existing and surviving.

There was a time when it was enough to keep my head above water every day. Every moment was like treading water, trying not to drown. I remember being a Jefferson State Community College sophomore, excited and proud. You know, Student Government Association President, full-scholarship, choice of where I wanted to go to school once I completed Jeff State. Then through a series of decisions, it all came crashing down. In less than six months, my girlfriend was pregnant, I fell behind in school, my grades dropped, and I lost my scholarship. I went from being the master of my fate and the captain of my soul; to questioning if my life was worth living.

My biggest fear was that I had ruined my life. I had no job. I lived at home with my mother. I was twenty years old with a baby on the way. It was not the vision that I had for my life. During that time, a million thoughts ran through my mind. Honestly, only one thought ran through my mind. It just played out a million different ways. That thought was… “How can I escape?” I wanted a way out. I didn’t see the beauty in life, and I couldn’t figure out how I had gotten to that point. What I thought was living turned out to be merely existing.

Then one day, my then-girlfriend asked if I would go to the pregnancy center she’d gone to when she found out she was pregnant. That moment changed my life and the life of my daughter forever. I was afraid, and I was still a child and didn’t know how to be a father. But when I saw my daughter’s ultrasound and heard her heartbeat, I fell in love. It was truly beautiful.

Next week, I’ll share more about my journey and how God used this period of life to wake me up. I hope that you will consider subscribing.

The lyrics above are from Trip Lee’s song Beautiful Life! Check it out below!

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